What does submission look like?

Yesterday i was asked the question:  I am curious to know when you find yourself imagining yourself in submission, what does it look like to you?

and i replied..

When i imagine myself in submission, it looks and feels very safe, warm, and loving. Unlike any love i've ever known. i know that i can trust Him with my deepest and darkest secrets needs and desires and know He will never use any of those against me.

 i can smell the sweat of lust and desire. being bound tightly yet feeling as if i am flying, freerer than i've ever been. the smell of leather as it dances across my body, it leaves me gasping and crying out, yet i feel His hand as he traces each angry, red welt left upon my skin. It teethers me to this earth, to this place.. to Him.

 i know that the pain He bestows upon me, pleases Him, for i can see His erection, and i want nothing more in the world than to please Him. When i hear His moans, it brings me great pleasure. When i feel His fingers running through my hair and He pushes His stiffness into my mouth, i happily lick, suck and probe until He pulls away, leaving me breathless and in need of more.

Life at Collarme...

Times have certainly changed in the time i have been away from the BDSM Scene. I am absolutely impressed with the community as a whole. More and more people in the scene have a great deal of knowledge, wit and they think in whole sentences, which is good. Most men you might meet out there, you are often lucky if they can spell the word 'dog' let alone speak some dialogue.. But the more i read people's bios and journals. i see this isn't so much true with many of these folks. Don't ask me what made me think of this, cuz i seriously do not know. I was just thinking in general about things i've been impressed with since I've been back.

Something else i've noticed about the community is that they are a very open and lovable group of people.  They don't knock you down and beat you up if you are a few pounds overweight <---something i am. I mean yeah, men have their preference and of course, everybody wants to feel some kind of attraction to their potential mate.. so yeah. But what i mean is, i receive more mail there from soooo many men who do not hold it against me. It is like they have matured on some deeper level than most, perhaps because of what their lifestyle has caused them to become, whatever the case. i like it. i like to be accepted. And perhaps there are people around who do not find you (me) attractive, but if i reach out to them, they treat me as a gentleman and acknowledge me and what i am saying and respond in kind. (forums) without any sort of rude comments or put-downs. The way most of us sane adults want to be treated, but rarely are. It is like a breath of fresh air and i like it.

I definitely have my eyes on a couple different Dom's on there. A younger Dom male, by about 8 years.. but he is VERY handsome and also lives in Colorado..  which is a good thing. My only problem with this man, is that i think he is just too DOM for me.  I don't think i am at a point in my explorations where i am even remotely looking for 24/7/365 full time slave position. Then there is one who is older by about 4 years and he is definitely not the best thing on earth to look at but he has the biggest heart and love just kind of exudes out of his pores along with his jovial attitude. He is not a hard-core Dom, enjoys romance but lives in AZ and is not in the best of health with some issues that may very well inhibit his desire to travel.  
Since i too believe, it is the heart one must look at if they seek true love.. i will have to pick the 2nd one.
I am curious as to why i would do that though when the first one is not only closer but healthier and able to get around. They both seem to have good hearts. i believe i am afraid because the first one is a great deal more demanding of His submissive. Why am i so afraid to explore that side of me?

Peace, love and some kind of dang applesauce.
embrisa

Something cute i found!

Life..

goofing around..