and i replied..
When i imagine myself in submission, it looks and feels very safe, warm, and loving. Unlike any love i've ever known. i know that i can trust Him with my deepest and darkest secrets needs and desires and know He will never use any of those against me.
i can smell the sweat of lust and desire. being bound tightly yet feeling as if i am flying, freerer than i've ever been. the smell of leather as it dances across my body, it leaves me gasping and crying out, yet i feel His hand as he traces each angry, red welt left upon my skin. It teethers me to this earth, to this place.. to Him.
i know that the pain He bestows upon me, pleases Him, for i can see His erection, and i want nothing more in the world than to please Him. When i hear His moans, it brings me great pleasure. When i feel His fingers running through my hair and He pushes His stiffness into my mouth, i happily lick, suck and probe until He pulls away, leaving me breathless and in need of more.