All These Things

I feel severly mentally confused. The events that have taken place these past couple days have totally drained me out not only physically but also totally mentally.
Sometime this past weekend Lano was calling my home. From the looks on my caller ID it would of been 5/7/05. The only reason I can see that he called me was because he got into a fight with his mother and she actually left the house. He sounded drunk off his a*s and didn't seem to have any real reason why he was arguing with his mother other than the fact that she was standing up for herself while he was drunk and trying to cause her problems. *frowns*
I guess from what he told me is she actually told him to go "f*ck off" and he told her to leave her own house. doh and so she did it. She has lots of family in this town they live in, so i'm sure she had no problems staying with one of her sisters or something, but I can't believe he would tell his own mother to leave her own house and she would actually do it.
Well, I guess the lady has been under alot of stress these past couple of months, having just lost her own husband (he passed away right in their own bedroom) and now her brother is dying of cancer and she is spending lots of time going back and forth from hospital to be with him. That i guess she just cannot handle Lano's drunken a*sholish moods.

He told me during that conversation that is was either his mother or me?? I thought what the heck kind of thinking is this? I do not understand his way of thinking and I never will and I told him so. That is mother was NOT his wife. That he does not have sex with his mother. That loving ones mother and one's lover (wife, etc) was two totally different kinds of love.

He also called me yesterday and had the guts to cuss me out for him having to call me? That I just did not jump out of bed and automatically ring him. LOL. what a joke and told him so about that as well. That usually he does not bother to answer his phone so why do I want to put myself through the same old games as usual. But i guess with him still not getting along so great with his mother he felt he needed to speak to me?

I reminded him that the way he treats his mother is the way he will treat any woman he ever loves in his life. But i'm sure he already knew that.

Anyway, he is a dark kind of energy that is very draining upon ones soul and i still feel tired. I just wanted to make note of what was going on before i forgot the dates.

Love & Peace
embrisa